Mercury Mantra

"I can re-root my mind and body any time with the grounding presence of the Spirit." 

I cannot stress enough that there has been so many lessons during this Mercury retrograde. There have been arguments, new theories, poems, healing dialogues, resolutions, and also many moments of isolated silence. But despite this mofo rollercoaster, I am still here thanks to God! 

Forever, (and I am sure we have all lowkey been socialized to really obsess this) I was worried about saying the right thing all the time. Making sure that every word that came out my mouth was appropriate enough for whoever was listening. In my head, I find it is impossible to say all the right thing all the time when what is Right is translated subjectively. But, in our world- folks in institutions don't cares about philosophy. My bosses don't care. Some of my elders don't care (still love yall), but do y'all get the picture I'm painting? We live in a hypersensitive world that gives you limited resources to achieve high standards- like being right aaaalll the time. Dis be giving me anxiety, though! And nobody is actually telling me to say the right thing-- but as a Black woman I always get the reaction that it is expected of me in almost every social sphere. The minute I express confusion or inaccuracy the whole world is boggled. This is simply not a healthy situation. 

This Retrograde, I have been challenging this expectation, because why not? This is my period to blossom. Ain't nobody gon stop me either. 

6 So we say with confidence,“The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid.
    What can mere mortals do to me?” Hebrews 13:6

There has been times over the past week where I was resilient in conflict and there has also been times where I got hella sassy and spoke my true mind. But my gift is that I reaped lessons from trying these different interactions. When I found it necessary to be silent, I learned the stories and truths about other individuals, and when I spoke my anger- people heard and validated my voice. 

So, it is okay if you don't have the right thing to say. But, if you have anything to say- SAY IT!  Say it for your own freedom- don't worry about keeping the next person comfortable. It might be wrong, or it might be the Right answer we all have been looking for. Just know that God is your helper. And if you follow His way- it doesn't always align with institutional rules and policies. Coming to terms with the work that entails was the only conflict was inside me.  I was anxious about repercussions to the point of silencing myself. But God wants us to speak just so we can further our learning. Now, repeat, click and share this mantra: 

"I can re-root my mind and body any time with the grounding presence of the Spirit." 

Peace and love,